my fear...

For a long time... I barely tell a lot of people what I fear... But this is what I feared the most...
I fear of losing the people I love... I came so close to losing my mom... After she got a stroke months ago... Then this came to me recently... Which is my girlfriend... The second person I loved the most after my mom... The usual reasons I feared of losing her is that she'll die while i'm still alive... But the fear almost came true however not because of her going to die but in fact of her almost leaving me for another guy... I might be denying my true feelings in front of her telling her that I don't worry about it... But the truth is, I can't stop thinking about it... She might be honest to me, but the fear is always there... Though I trusted that she won't betray me and leave me... But I can't get the thought out of my head... Will we last? Will we break up someday?

I have no intentions of breaking up with you... But will you leave me?

Acapella on youtube...

Well, random things to look for in youtube today... So i decided roaming around in youtube for acapella...
And amazingly I found this video...

Yeah, I know the video looks slightly retarded but the guy made an effort to perfect his Legend of Zelda medley...
in case you have no idea what's an Acapella, it means a group something similar to choir. But not singing in unison... In fact, each voice replaces an instrument... and I'm quite amazed that this guy did an entire Acapella all on his own... He must have some sort of perfect timing... I give this video a 10/10 rating...

Day 5

5 days... I've been wondering what happened to the people around? I decided to get that idea that i'm the last man on earth from my head. I find a pickup truck, load all the weapons, food and fuel i need for a road trip. I took some money from the nearest convenience store and stock up on some dog food for Hope. With Hope in the truck, I decided to go on the road trip. I drove for hours reaching nearby towns around the city and all i find are abandoned towns. And tired, I decided to find a place to rest. I found a motel and went to the counter. Expecting no service, I took one of the keys and went straight to the room. I kept walking all my way there and then, Hope started barking. I looked around and saw a figure. I called out to that figure. But it didn't reply but just ran away. I chased the figure with Hope running behind me.

But the figure was too fast, it disappeared into the night without a trace. What could that be? Could it be that my mind is playing tricks with me? I decided to walk back to the room. Gosh, tired after hours of driving. Perhaps, tomorrow will be better wouldn't it? I lied down on the bed thinking about that figure. Could it be human? Or was it a ghost? Or was it just my imagination...
Who knows...

another sleepless night...

I wonder, i think i'm just ignoring my sleeping time and enjoying all the fun in the middle of the night... I've been sleep deprived for 2 days... However, this sleepless night is kinda full of nice stuff...

I managed to catch the latest episodes of Valkyria Chronicles... OMG! Why on earth they'd kill off Isara? Gosh, i love her... she's such a sweet sister to my favourite character... gosh, I just hate the fact that she's gone... somehow, the mood for watching Valkyria Chronicles has returned ever since the twist of the story with Isara being a victim of an Imperial Sniper... I got my interest back all of a sudden...

Still can't forget those people who never watched the anime and played the game itself... saying the American version of Valkyria Chronicles OP was better than the Japanese OP... NO WAY! You guys are still blind... look on that game's story from the proper way!

Space the final frontier...

Space, the final frontier... Why do we even bother searching for new civilizations in the universe? This vast emptiness... Could it be possible that we are the only civilization in this entire vast emptiness? it's so similar like you fit in a grain of sand in an empty jar. So small, we can barely notice it... But yet, this exploration of the entire universe might be the only key to our survival in the distant future. From Star Trek to Star Wars, fiction has mentioned many different species of humanoid like extraterrestrial species. Yet, how sure are we that they exist?

Are we really alone? Or are we mere targets for an intergalactic invasion? We will never know. History records show that there were encounters with super beings but how sure it is that these beings are the extraterrestrials? Perhaps, it could be the imagination of man. Is Jesus an ET? Perhaps, but there is no proof that he is divine nor mortal. The survival of mankind is uncertain. We might be extinct in a few years. Or we might prosper and form a gigantic federation of planets in the galaxy. But to go to that extent, will take thousands of years of achievement in perfecting our daily life transport system and power system. As proven, an energy source to open and close a wormhole required is many times much more compared to what we have today.

Time will tell, as ancients has foretold the so called end of the world. But, we will never be sure when it will be. Some say, it'll end in December 12th 2012... Yet, others believe that we will move on into the skies, colonize every single planet we find and protect our own species.

Tagged... i'm going to kill the person who started this...

Tagged... Dragged into this silly game... i'm going to kill the person who started this...

A: Available: Absolutely not, though i'm single...
B: Birthday: June 25th 1990...
C: Crush on: let's see... nope no one...
D: Drink you last had: Cold Water...
E: Earliest person you talked to: My gf... called her after she fetched her dad...
F: Favourite Song: No matter the Distance...
G: Games: Lost count... too many for me...
H: Hometown: Klang, Selangor...
I: In love with: my gf...
J: Juggle: average in it... can't do more than 2...
K: Killed someone: I wish...
L: Longest car ride: 5 hours... took the wrong bus to Johor Bahru instead of Kuala Lumpur...
M: Milkshake flavour: Chocolate...
N: Number of Siblings: 4 including myself...
O: One wish: wipe out opposition parties and declare peace...
P: Person you called recently: my gf...
Q: Quest in life: Make an impact on other people's lives...
R: Reason to smile: oh gosh... i'm so happy...
S: Song you last heard: No matter the distance...
T: Time you wake up: random...
U: Underwear colour: gosh... why do i even need to answer this? random...
V: Vegetables: not preferred...
W: Worst Habit: lazy...
X: X-rays you've had: twice...
Y: Yoyos are: annoying...
Z: Zodiac Sign: the big fat crab called Cancer...

7 people you want to tag excluding the person who tagged you...
Winnie
Keichi
Wei Keong
Kee Lee
Suzy
| exo |
Saw
Thomas

Another long night...

Another night, wow... This is sure a long night...
I wonder why that's so...
well, got into a fight with my gf again... My fault basically...
I was mumbling crap while being half concious... anyway, tonight, I have no idea what is going on...
Times are bad, the epidemic is getting worse... and it is during these times where I don't even feel like going out at all... These few days, I wonder why myself... Why i'm being such an arse... being an arse to my girl, and also being an arse to myself...
Things going wrong and I have no idea how to fix it...
Time is running out till the big day itself...
GACC, the one helluva shitload expected failure...
Reasons... Last minute planning, and we don't get a single thing bout what we're supposed to do...
Anyway, as the time goes on... I kept thinking a lot... My girlfriend... my self... my own life... everything... I kept wondering why am I being such an arse to everyone...

restless night all over again...

another night of totally restlessness...
I wonder what's been playing in my mind recently...
Is it because of the war going on between me, my gf and the club comms?
or was it because i'm just plain worried about things going on around Malacca?
God knows...
I want to find out what's going on...
My housemate just went back to Seremban a few hours ago...
Leaving me here alone...
I don't really felt like going back to Klang at all...
Seems like something's not right back in my hometown i wonder why...
Whatever it is...
Conditions are bad in Malacca...
with the flu epidemic on...
Where i'm staying...
is within range of the flu epidemic...
i wonder how long my days on earth are left...
Just hope that I won't die that soon...
I'm not ready to let go...
not that i'm afraid of it...
I'm not ready to let go...
There's still a lot for me to achieve...
Never ready to let go...