2012 the review...

Water rushing, volcanoes erupting. Chaos is everywhere. Humans running away trampling over each other just to save their lives. Well, what can you expect? It's a disaster film. That is 2012. Another random time when I have nothing better to do than to sit in the cinema, with popcorn and with my girlfriend.

2012 started with a quite calming scene of 2 friends visiting. However, it turned quite fast into a disaster. Global temperature rising. NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh well, that's what you expect of one anyway. Roland Emmerich didn't waste time into bringing the suspense early in the story. However, the suspense was a little way too early but, it shows that Roland Emmerich does not intend to waste time over boring intros.

The story progression kept the viewers stick to their chairs instead of leaving the cinema. Kudos to the CG team. Without it, the movie would have sucked like 2012: Doomsday. Well, can't compare high budget films with low budget films. The action scene was so-so. The supposedly comedic parts were lame. A supposedly intense scene turned me down when the actor was way too calm in such an intense scene.

Despite the lame comedic scenes, the progression of the story was average. But, the CG pulled up the scores for the whole show. I'm giving it a 7/10

Views on Humanity...

Today, I started to look back at humanity itself... We are such pitiful creatures... With our vast knowledge, yet, we could not progress far... Such a pity... The main reason... We did not put our knowledge to full use... Instead of focusing on such unimportant matters such as war and politics, we could have focused more on bringing peace to everyone... Nuclear weapons? We don't need them... They have no use for us... Who says peace can be achieved through war? Is this saying really true? that a total annihilation of one side means peace? Wouldn't this continue on for another one? Eventually, we will annihilate ourselves... Think again...

the irrationality of humankind...

Humans have always been strange creatures. We are capable of provoking a silly thing. Imagine a world without racism and religion. We can still find fault with one another for a silly reason. Question is why are we like that? Is there a world where such things will never happen? Are we capable of living in harmony? I guess not. Though this post might be short, but the question still remains. Will we really be able to achieve world peace?

Day 10

I woke up to the noise of rustling. I readied my gun and started walking out of the bedroom I was sleeping in. I aimed it at the door and then walked slowly trying to make as little noise as possible. The noise comes from downstairs, slowly, I walked down the staircase with my gun ready. I kept myself alert and looked at the surroundings trying to find where that noise is coming from. As I approached the kitchen, it became louder. I looked carefully into the kitchen. A woman with an apron was going through the fridge and looking for some nice stuff to cook.

I called out to her and she looked at me with a calm look. I lowered my gun as I saw a familiar face. "Mom?"

"Yes, honey?"

"I thought you were..." I tried to make some sense.

"Dead? Yes, I am dead." She replied.

"But how, what's going on here?"

"You're dreaming, Jim."

I slapped myself a few times trying to make sure it's a dream. I barely felt a thing. She made some pancakes.

"Come on, eat it before it gets cold." she said asking me to have breakfast.

"Mom, why are you here?" I asked.

"Jim. It's been a while. I visited you here to see what you've had become." she said with a calm voice. "Now now, come on. Eat it while it's still hot."

I took a chair and sat down preparing to eat. Boy, it's delicious. That pancake. I haven't had it ever since she died 5 years ago.

"Mmhmm mhhmhmhm..." I mumbled with the pancake in my mouth.

"Don't talk with your mouth full.",she said, lecturing me like I'm still a child.

"I came here just to see how you've become, Jim. I've missed you ever since that day I have to leave. Seems like you're doing quite well, nowadays."

"What happened to everyone? I mean where is everyone?" I asked thinking that she might know something.

"It's not what happened to everyone. It's what happened to you. No one left you."

"Jim. Jim." a strange eerie voice called out.

"Who's that?" I said.

"Jim, you'd better be going soon. I can't stay here any longer. But before I leave, I wanted to tell you something. When you found everyone back, spend more time with them than you usually do while you still can." she said, her voice getting fainter and fainter.

"Wait, what do you mean by that? Mom, where are you going? No! Don't leave me here." I tried to grab hold of her. But a bright light shone upon me and she disappeared.

I looked towards the bright light and I looked back to see if there's anything. But I decided that I would rush towards the bright light. I ran and ran and ran towards it. And I ended up lying down on a bed. A blinding light was aimed at my eye. I tried to look around and I see a few people surrounding me. They were wearing white suits. Are they doctors?

I looked around and I smelt something of a weird smell. It smelled like a hospital and I realized, it's because I am in one. I looked around. My wife stood not far away crying. My children were panicking.

"He's fine. He just woke up from his coma." one of the doctors said.

"Coma? what happened?"

"You had an accident 10 days ago. And you were in a coma ever since." she said.

"Wow, considering a cardiac arrest just now, I'm surprised that it woke you up. Someone up there must've loved you really much." the doctor said and left.

I looked at my wife with her teary eyes and my children. They rushed towards me and gave me a hug. I was crying, How could I ever say what happened to me there? I was alone and I nearly killed myself in there. If I had done that, I would had been dead. I looked at them, and said, "I'm glad to be back."

Choose it or not?

People have been saying things like that guy's good in this and that and he's so awesome. From my view, things like these is not nothing. There is no perfect human. Humans are created equal in a way but they are created different according to their abilities. Talent is what they have. Some people are good at entertaining. Some are good at thinking. Some are good at doing the harsh work. Perhaps, most people should start to rethink this. Talents are not based on their genetic code. But talent is based on whether you choose to do it or not. If you have the passion for that field, talent comes in naturally. As you choose to learn.

Take a princess and throw her in a farm. She might not be able to work in the beginning. But as time goes on, she'll learn and she can become a good farmer as well. Take a pauper, throw him/her in as a prince or princess. He'll learn how to govern his subjects in a matter of time. What they are good at doing is not based on who they are but what they chose to do to their lives. Despite this might be an already obvious thing. I still find that most people today still say like this person is so great at this and that. I find it uninteresting and say that humans are equal in all sense of ways.

War and Peace...

Recently, I've been going through some videos on youtube calming my mind until I came across a video of Metal Gear Solid Peace Walker trailer. And within the trailer, I just realized that there are countries without an army. For example, Costa Rica's Article 12 of their constitution abolishes the military forces ending the military spirit in the country. The abolishing of the military happened 1 year after the Costa Rican civil war which resulted with the overthrowing of their government. Ever since, Costa Rica has never went into civil war despite their neighbors do.

Today, their supposed military budget is focused on security, education and culture. This resulted in a peaceful nation which remains neutral in it's stance. From this nation, I've had came to realize. Why do we even need soldiers? Why do we fight? Is it necessary? If every nation in the world lay down their weapons and trade in for tool to build. Instead of tools of murder and despair, humans should rethink that war is the unnecessary method. Why on earth do we listen to our selfish leaders? Who decided that war is the only matter to gain what they want. Foolish leaders, because of your greed, you have caused young men and women to die. Fighting for an ideology, is it even important?

Militants world wide, especially religious extremists and radicals, think back! Would your religion approve of murder of innocent civilians? How about the murder of many women and children? These people have nothing but each other and their will to survive. Why do we fight? Humans are humans. Race and religion is not anything worth fighting for. Why do we have to separate people by groups. Why do we even identify each other in different races? Why not calling each of us as humans and humans alone. What is the difference? Africans, Caucasians, Arabs, Indians, Asians and other races, we are humans. Humanity has no need to fight to show who's different. Soldiers, lay down your weapons. Politicians, think of other ways to solve a conflict. The world needs to stop thinking each other as a different race but humans.

Laying down their weapons in trade for tools to educate, to build, to help is what every nation should do. Give the weapons to guards and police. Why do we even need to buy tanks and create more guns to kill? Leave the battlefield, join the people around to create a happy world. Without an army, there would be no reason to fight. Without an army, politicians would not interfere with other nations' internal affairs. Lay down your weapons and start to think again.

Instrumentals... a story without words...

Instrumental songs. One form of music which has began from the old ages and the longest surviving genre of music. Never obsolete and never forgotten. I've been spending hours and hours in front of my PC listening to instrumentals. It doesn't matter which era they are from. Classical, New Age, it always tell a story which will not describe in words. For example, Playing Love by Ennio Morricone from the movie The Legend of 1900, describes about the thoughts of a man when he sees a girl. Stories need not be told in pictures or words. Music itself carries a story. Plain music without words. Despite the great songs everywhere, there are those who finds it boring and uninteresting.

Plain music without words tell stories which no words can ever describe. Most of today's popular music are nothing but a corruption towards good music. Good music today is under-appreciated as more and more people has succumbed to the trends of music which promotes killing, death, self harming, sex and other immoral acts. What everyone should do, is to stop listening to every other songs and give these beautiful instrumentals a try.

Self harming... Failure of understanding humanity's worth?

Self harming as most usually recognize it as a part of the Emo subculture is a method of doing physical harm towards one self. However, this self harming is not just a normal harming. What puzzles me today is why on earth would humans even harm themselves? I mean, is there any good coming from people being emo nowadays? What is it that humans prefer cutting their own wrists or doing any severe physical harm to themselves?

The only question I would wish to post to all those people out there who are still living within the emo subculture. Why do you even want to harm yourselves? Do you even care about the people around you who cares about you a lot? Harming yourself is not a way of expression. It is mere stupidity. If god wants us to harm ourselves, he would had turn it into a commandment. Emo or not, this is not worth doing. Origins of emo are from the popular music. Bands such as "My Chemical Romance" are promoting people to harm themselves. You teens have better things to do. Harming yourself is never a good idea.

Wake up world. This world is never miserable. The ones who are miserable is you people. You people wanted it to be miserable. That's why you feel that it's miserable. I find it ironic that humans who are created to protect themselves wants to harm themselves instead. Humans are not stupid. Humans are an intelligent race and the stupidity comes from why we do irrational things? Grow up people!

animes and intelligence?

WARNING: Despite my post to be sliding towards the anti-anime side, I would like to say this. Please. Do not stop reading this post.

Challenging minds. Animes have become a trend. A culture in the world. Something Japan has contributed. Though, they have been challenging everyone's minds. They have proven to be ridiculous at times. I have suddenly thought of this. Animes are something which are not worth watching when you have other things to do. It is merely a fantasy world where its purpose is to entertain you. However, too much entertainment has its toll. Though the question is, too much anime can cause your intelligence to deteriorate? Plausible theory. My claim is that the more you watch, the more you neglect other stuff such as challenging your minds to explore new things and new possibilities.

Though this doesn't really say that only animes will do. So, the title should be changed to too much of any entertainment causes your mind to go down to zero. True? WRONG! Despite how much, I've experimented it with, entertainment doesn't really kills your intelligence. However, if you're watching some lame shows on the TV, yes it does. Entertainment such as video games in fact makes you think better.

In fact, certain games have proven to have sharpen the minds of many. However, that doesn't mean that you should stick your face in front of the TV with the console or the PC to play all sorts of games. Some games in fact makes your intelligence go down. Back to topic. We're discussing about animes and intelligence right? Well, for what I can see, some people had already forgotten about what's important in their lives when they started watching animes or any other things on TV. I've spent my time watching too much animes in the previous year. And to my surprise, I've realized, that too much is bad. My point is anime is a fantasy, where the impossible happens. Real life shows however, couldn't achieve the impossible since they couldn't defy the laws of physics. In this case, Real life shows would be more suitable for humanity instead of animes. When we watch things on TV. We tend to believe that what they do is real. So, in this case, we deny our own reality and substitute it with theirs.

As to conclude this post, my point is, to not let yourself be absorbed into the anime world but keep a part of your consciousness to be in the real world. A balance on both animes and our TV shows would be nice. The more we absorb fantasy, the more our minds become rotten. As our minds focus on fantasy stimuli and not the real world. And this will result in weakened intelligence and focus. I suggest to all who reads this post to think more of the real life than to indulge fully into the world of fantasy

A Song of Storm and Fire

This was performed in Passion December 2006. I was browsing through youtube and saw this video. The song was composed by Japanese musician, Yuki Kajiura. It was a song written for a teenage hit anime in 2006 called Tsubasa Chronicle or Chronicles of the Wings. The title of the song is "A Song of Storm and Fire".

Against Racial politics with an example from "the great dictator"....

the video was taken from the great dictator. A film by Charlie Chaplin in 1940 criticizing the Fascist government of Adolf Hitler. However, there are similarities in today's governments who practice racial politics. If anyone would actually listen to all that is to be said in this show, shouldn't we practice it? Here's true democracy for you...

THIS IS GAMERRR!

GAMER: THE REVIEW

Once upon a time, there was this convict who tried to get out of jail and agreed to be part of a real life massively multi-player online game called Slayers. This was no ordinary game, it was a game about life and death. The players control the convicts in a killing spree. A high ping would result in the death of one human life. Think twice. Are you really ready to be in a video game? Okay, perhaps Hollywood might be running out of nice movies recently and they finally took out their trump card to win back the audience. Of course, this trump card is no other than Gerard Butler as Kable in the latest movie, Gamer. Yeah, my exams was coming and yet, I have time to chillax and waste my time watching movies in the cinema. Okay, back to topic, the world was taken aback after the introduction of Ragnarok Online, a massively multiplayer online role-playing game. Then, there comes World of Warcraft which is a hit in certain areas. And now, we present, Gamer.

When I first walked in to the cinema, I was reading the synopsis of every movies just next to the entrance. And the first thing which caught my attention was of course, Gamer. Maybe it's my addiction towards games that got me interested in this show. After the whole long process of waiting for the right time, get the popcorns and the movie tickets and finally enter the room. The first thing I noticed was the people around me. There were barely anyone. So, I thought, maybe it doesn't suck but maybe those people are busy with the preparation for breaking fast. The movie started off with a nice action scene from the game itself with blasts and blood and dirt all over. I was taken aback by the action scenes showing people fighting professionally like soldiers in a sci-fi battle field. Only to find them as real humans and not avatars at all.

As the movie progresses, my expectation for the movie is this is so going to rock the house. Maybe with some cool lines like, "TONIGHT WE DIE IN SLAYERS!" or maybe "THIS IS GAMERR!" However, it doesn't seem so. Perhaps, the script writers have been too lazy to continue the story and give it a terrible ending. When I mean "terrible ending", it means a really crude, lazy and unfinished work. Some parts of the story are rip-offs from Death Race. I'm not spoiling anything here, you have to watch it to find out yourself. Though the story wasn't good enough, I can never be disappointed in the whole show. Kudos to the pyrotechnics team for a great work with the explosions. However, the actors aren't performing their best. Gerard Butler lacked the macho-ness from 300 and the villain is a weak-willed psychopath who tries to cover his own a** by mind controlling someone to murder only to end up killed by his weak-willed self. Overall, the movie was a disaster set for a million parodies in the future. Perhaps, someone might start making a 300/Gamer parody right now. Ratings based on all points, character and storyline greatly pulls down the score for this show. Kudos to CG and pyrotechnics again for an amazing job to make this movie good enough to be above my "THIS MOVIE SUCKS" rating. It didn't went all that bad as Postal the movie. ( personal rating: 4/10)

Day 9

I woke up two days later. I looked around the surroundings. It was daybreak. Hope was barking. How long has it been barking? I wondered. The pickup overturned. I released my seat belt and I fell face first towards the ground. Ouch! I checked my watch and noticed that it's been two days since I've been out. Wow, I never knew I could sleep for one entire day. I crawled out of the wreck and get to the back of the pickup. Most of the things inside the truck were either smashed to pieces or they've been thrown far away when the truck overturned.

I gathered up as many supplies as I can and continue down the road. I opened the map finding a place where people stay or at least they used to. A town situated down the road about 20 miles. I walked down the road without even looking back. I thought back. That dream. That figure. It's getting familiar. That voice. I've heard it before. I checked my wallet. A picture of a woman. She looks exactly like her. I tried hard to recall that voice. And I kept looking at that picture. My wife. That figure in my dream was my wife. Where is she? Is she gone like everyone else? I stopped in my trails. I dropped down on the floor with the picture of her. I screamed out loud. Hope got frightened and almost ran away, but she trailed on. Tears start rolling down my cheeks.

I took the gun out and aimed at my head. Tears continued rolling down my cheeks. What am I doing? I want to end my suffering, but I'm not giving up hope to continue finding signs of human life. It's only been 9 days. I'm going crazy. I'm delusional. What am I to do?

"Sir, please calm down." someone said to a man standing on the edge of a building. I tried to calm that person down. That man intended to jump off the building. I was still an intern in a hospital. I raised my hand towards the guy. I told him, "If you jump off this building, what's going to happen next?" The guy being stressed threatened to jump off the building still. I walked slowly towards that guy. "Don't come any closer or I'll jump." that man said with a shaky voice. That feeling of being responsible for another man's death came into me. I was so afraid that if I go any closer, he would jump off the building. The more I approach, the more that man stepped closer towards the edge. He was too close to the edge and suddenly, he was about to slip. I ran towards the edge and he was clinging on to the edge of the rooftop. I stretched my hand out towards that man. He tried to reach for it. I stretched out further. He reached my hand. I grabbed it and everyone helped to pull that guy back. That man was saved. He was a schizophrenic patient in the hospital where my internship was based in. That was a memory from 10 years ago.

Tears still rolling down my cheek as I sat with the gun pointed at my head. I cried and cried and cried. What should I do now? Should I continue this road trip or should I end my life here? Hope came towards my face and started licking me. I lowered the gun. I stood up and continue my journey. I decided that taking my own life isn't worth it. Walking down the road for 3 hours, I finally reached a small town. The traffic lights are still working. Cars which ran out of fuel for a week. I searched the streets and I found a working pickup. I drove it to the closest fuel station and refuel that thing. Scavenging through the whole town I found some extra fuel tanks and fuel it up at the fuel station. I roam around everywhere and scavenge all sorts of supplies just to stock up in the car. Some dog food for Hope. Tired of roaming around, I went into a random house and went to the master bedroom and lie down on it. I looked around the house. A picture of a married couple. Tears started rolling down my cheeks as I recalled my wedding day. Tears continue rolling down my cheeks until I fell asleep.

Day 7

The road trip went on for a day. Thinking that I would find some nice place to sleep, but it's been hours and I haven't slept yet. I kept driving down the silent road. It's been a week since I woke up to be the last man on earth. I pulled over and take a leak. The night's dark. I readied my gun, slid it in my pants while I relieve myself. After that, I thought that this would be a long night. I grabbed a can of coffee from the back of the truck and open it. I took a short sip. Looking up at the eerie sky, the darkness fills my heart. When will I find the next human. The longer I go on this trip, the more crazier my mind becomes. It's already playing tricks on me once and I don't want it to be like this again.

I drove down the road. Silence fills the atmosphere. I decided to take out my I-pod and start playing some songs. The track plays "I'll Be There" by Michael Jackson. A nostalgic song from the old days. I remembered listening to this song when I was a kid. I drove down the road while singing the song. My body aches. It's been a while. I kept driving and driving. All of a sudden, something jumped out in front of the car. I got the shock of my life and tried my best to avoid it but then I lost control of the pickup and it hit a ditch. I got banged violently. With mild pain, I blacked out.

"Jim! Wake up!" a voice called out. "Jim! Jim!" I tried to look at it. The same figure from my previous dream. Why this again? "Jim!" the figure called out to me. She stretched her hand as if to ask me to hold it. I tried to reach it. I kept running towards it but the more I run towards her, the further she is. I kept running. Running and panting. I ran and ran. Not looking back or anywhere. Trying to reach for the figure. The feeling of this futile run. It's as if I'll be on an endless path. But I can't stop running. I ran and ran and ran. The figure starts getting closer and closer. I jumped out to her. My fingers barely touching hers and I fell into that deep pit again. Darkness fills the world. The figure disappears.

Day 6

"Jim" I heard a voice. I looked for that voice. It's ringing in my ears. A bright light shone upon me. A female figure stood there looking at me. Her face, so beautiful so pure. I tried to reach out for it. I ran and ran and ran for her. I tried to reach for her. But the more I ran she kept disappearing. Who is she? She sounded so familiar. The pursuit went on and on and on but I can't reach her. I still tried. I ran so fast that I don't even noticed the things around me. As I was about to reach her. I fell into an endless pit. The light fades away.

I woke up to the sound of Hope's barking. I must have been drinking last night. A headache. Terrible one for me. I walked to the windows and open the curtains. The sun shining brightly. It must've been close to noon. Time doesn't matter anymore. I went to the motel kitchen searching through it for some nice meal. Then I recalled the dream I had. The voice was so familiar. I kept wondering who could that be? Then I recalled chasing after that phantom figure the night before. Maybe it's just a dream. Thinking about our journey ahead, I fed Hope, had my breakfast, stock up on some supplies head to the pickup outside and continue my journey. Whatever that thing was, I bet it won't be the last I see. I continue driving down the road.

my fear...

For a long time... I barely tell a lot of people what I fear... But this is what I feared the most...
I fear of losing the people I love... I came so close to losing my mom... After she got a stroke months ago... Then this came to me recently... Which is my girlfriend... The second person I loved the most after my mom... The usual reasons I feared of losing her is that she'll die while i'm still alive... But the fear almost came true however not because of her going to die but in fact of her almost leaving me for another guy... I might be denying my true feelings in front of her telling her that I don't worry about it... But the truth is, I can't stop thinking about it... She might be honest to me, but the fear is always there... Though I trusted that she won't betray me and leave me... But I can't get the thought out of my head... Will we last? Will we break up someday?

I have no intentions of breaking up with you... But will you leave me?

Acapella on youtube...

Well, random things to look for in youtube today... So i decided roaming around in youtube for acapella...
And amazingly I found this video...

Yeah, I know the video looks slightly retarded but the guy made an effort to perfect his Legend of Zelda medley...
in case you have no idea what's an Acapella, it means a group something similar to choir. But not singing in unison... In fact, each voice replaces an instrument... and I'm quite amazed that this guy did an entire Acapella all on his own... He must have some sort of perfect timing... I give this video a 10/10 rating...

Day 5

5 days... I've been wondering what happened to the people around? I decided to get that idea that i'm the last man on earth from my head. I find a pickup truck, load all the weapons, food and fuel i need for a road trip. I took some money from the nearest convenience store and stock up on some dog food for Hope. With Hope in the truck, I decided to go on the road trip. I drove for hours reaching nearby towns around the city and all i find are abandoned towns. And tired, I decided to find a place to rest. I found a motel and went to the counter. Expecting no service, I took one of the keys and went straight to the room. I kept walking all my way there and then, Hope started barking. I looked around and saw a figure. I called out to that figure. But it didn't reply but just ran away. I chased the figure with Hope running behind me.

But the figure was too fast, it disappeared into the night without a trace. What could that be? Could it be that my mind is playing tricks with me? I decided to walk back to the room. Gosh, tired after hours of driving. Perhaps, tomorrow will be better wouldn't it? I lied down on the bed thinking about that figure. Could it be human? Or was it a ghost? Or was it just my imagination...
Who knows...

another sleepless night...

I wonder, i think i'm just ignoring my sleeping time and enjoying all the fun in the middle of the night... I've been sleep deprived for 2 days... However, this sleepless night is kinda full of nice stuff...

I managed to catch the latest episodes of Valkyria Chronicles... OMG! Why on earth they'd kill off Isara? Gosh, i love her... she's such a sweet sister to my favourite character... gosh, I just hate the fact that she's gone... somehow, the mood for watching Valkyria Chronicles has returned ever since the twist of the story with Isara being a victim of an Imperial Sniper... I got my interest back all of a sudden...

Still can't forget those people who never watched the anime and played the game itself... saying the American version of Valkyria Chronicles OP was better than the Japanese OP... NO WAY! You guys are still blind... look on that game's story from the proper way!

Space the final frontier...

Space, the final frontier... Why do we even bother searching for new civilizations in the universe? This vast emptiness... Could it be possible that we are the only civilization in this entire vast emptiness? it's so similar like you fit in a grain of sand in an empty jar. So small, we can barely notice it... But yet, this exploration of the entire universe might be the only key to our survival in the distant future. From Star Trek to Star Wars, fiction has mentioned many different species of humanoid like extraterrestrial species. Yet, how sure are we that they exist?

Are we really alone? Or are we mere targets for an intergalactic invasion? We will never know. History records show that there were encounters with super beings but how sure it is that these beings are the extraterrestrials? Perhaps, it could be the imagination of man. Is Jesus an ET? Perhaps, but there is no proof that he is divine nor mortal. The survival of mankind is uncertain. We might be extinct in a few years. Or we might prosper and form a gigantic federation of planets in the galaxy. But to go to that extent, will take thousands of years of achievement in perfecting our daily life transport system and power system. As proven, an energy source to open and close a wormhole required is many times much more compared to what we have today.

Time will tell, as ancients has foretold the so called end of the world. But, we will never be sure when it will be. Some say, it'll end in December 12th 2012... Yet, others believe that we will move on into the skies, colonize every single planet we find and protect our own species.

Tagged... i'm going to kill the person who started this...

Tagged... Dragged into this silly game... i'm going to kill the person who started this...

A: Available: Absolutely not, though i'm single...
B: Birthday: June 25th 1990...
C: Crush on: let's see... nope no one...
D: Drink you last had: Cold Water...
E: Earliest person you talked to: My gf... called her after she fetched her dad...
F: Favourite Song: No matter the Distance...
G: Games: Lost count... too many for me...
H: Hometown: Klang, Selangor...
I: In love with: my gf...
J: Juggle: average in it... can't do more than 2...
K: Killed someone: I wish...
L: Longest car ride: 5 hours... took the wrong bus to Johor Bahru instead of Kuala Lumpur...
M: Milkshake flavour: Chocolate...
N: Number of Siblings: 4 including myself...
O: One wish: wipe out opposition parties and declare peace...
P: Person you called recently: my gf...
Q: Quest in life: Make an impact on other people's lives...
R: Reason to smile: oh gosh... i'm so happy...
S: Song you last heard: No matter the distance...
T: Time you wake up: random...
U: Underwear colour: gosh... why do i even need to answer this? random...
V: Vegetables: not preferred...
W: Worst Habit: lazy...
X: X-rays you've had: twice...
Y: Yoyos are: annoying...
Z: Zodiac Sign: the big fat crab called Cancer...

7 people you want to tag excluding the person who tagged you...
Winnie
Keichi
Wei Keong
Kee Lee
Suzy
| exo |
Saw
Thomas

Another long night...

Another night, wow... This is sure a long night...
I wonder why that's so...
well, got into a fight with my gf again... My fault basically...
I was mumbling crap while being half concious... anyway, tonight, I have no idea what is going on...
Times are bad, the epidemic is getting worse... and it is during these times where I don't even feel like going out at all... These few days, I wonder why myself... Why i'm being such an arse... being an arse to my girl, and also being an arse to myself...
Things going wrong and I have no idea how to fix it...
Time is running out till the big day itself...
GACC, the one helluva shitload expected failure...
Reasons... Last minute planning, and we don't get a single thing bout what we're supposed to do...
Anyway, as the time goes on... I kept thinking a lot... My girlfriend... my self... my own life... everything... I kept wondering why am I being such an arse to everyone...

restless night all over again...

another night of totally restlessness...
I wonder what's been playing in my mind recently...
Is it because of the war going on between me, my gf and the club comms?
or was it because i'm just plain worried about things going on around Malacca?
God knows...
I want to find out what's going on...
My housemate just went back to Seremban a few hours ago...
Leaving me here alone...
I don't really felt like going back to Klang at all...
Seems like something's not right back in my hometown i wonder why...
Whatever it is...
Conditions are bad in Malacca...
with the flu epidemic on...
Where i'm staying...
is within range of the flu epidemic...
i wonder how long my days on earth are left...
Just hope that I won't die that soon...
I'm not ready to let go...
not that i'm afraid of it...
I'm not ready to let go...
There's still a lot for me to achieve...
Never ready to let go...

am i an eyesore?

May i ask one question?
Am i an eyesore to everyone else?
Do i even need to exist?
or should i cease to exist?
I wonder why...
am I really useless?
Why can't I be useful for once?
I felt rejected...
no one wants me...
I feel stupid...

a long time since i've posted...

ahh...
the laziness...
I haven't posted in here for a long while...
What have I been doing recently?
I don't know...
My birthday passed... that's one thing...
hmm what else could there be?
oh yeah...
the fishing week...
Where we've came up with a big catch...
the numbers...
a secret...hehehe
don't wanna spoil the fun for everyone...
anyway...
Nice to be back in here...
Freshies...
Prepare yourself...
to face...
the one and only... Kappa

a random post...

Another random post...
Life's been boring recently...
Though I've registered for a new class now...
Thank god...
No more old fellas...
All the faces are completely new...
New stuff coming up...
NEW JUNIORS!
I'M IN CHARGE OF GREEN?!
WTF?! GREEN GREEN GREEN GREEN!
NVM...
I chose it anyway...
I chose to differ from my gf...
anyway..
new juniors...
time for my green method torture... mwah ha ha ha ha ha ha

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Geneology - Draw family tree

Invitation to a yamcha session...

Well, today I just got an message from a former primary school classmate of mine...
Gosh, I thought they would had forgotten about me by now...
Seems that they don't...
They called me out for a yamcha session...
But I was wondering...
Should I go or not?
Is it the best choice?
It could be another chance to ridicule me like wat they did to me 7 years ago...
I don't like that idea...
But most of them already forgotten bout how annoying I am...
perhaps, I need to reconsider it first...
Leaving my stuff here for a few days isn't the problem... But I've got things to take back here too... So, I've gotta find a way to come back here anyway...
So far... I'll give some time to think bout it... I might be going back...

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celeb - Collage - Morph

Knight of Light

The world has plunged into darkness. Everyone was seeking out a champion. They would fight like gladiators in the arena. Who would take the sword of the king and rescue the princess who has been kidnapped? Everyone doubted it. Many had went and never return in this quest for ultimate glory. One man appeared behind and yelled, "I do!" He wore a shiny armor with a lion as it's emblem.

This man came forward to the king. He kneels down in front of the king in respect. He then challenge the king's greatest knight. He entered the arena. Many were cheering. Unknown which person's cheering for which side. He readied his sword, charged at the other knight and hit him chest on from the flat surface of his blade. the opponent knight fell but quickly rises up again. A fight to determine who'll be the champion. Alas, the lone knight has won the competition. He stepped forward to the king and kneels down. He raises his sword with both his hands and hand it over to the king. The king takes it and replaces it with a new sword. This sword bears the emblem of the kingdom.

And so, this knight went on the journey to find the missing princess. He rode on his prized steed venturing the lands looking for ways to find the princess. Finally, he reaches the tower which the princess was kept. He tied his horse right next to a tree. He readies his sword and opened the door to the tower. Bones were scattered everywhere. Armor which had once shined with pride and glory are now faded. Many men had fallen within this tower. The knight went in cautiously exploring the tower. The stairways were dimly lit. He went in deeper and deeper. And he notices a whisper behind his back. He ducks down and a blade just barely grazed his hair. He took a deep breath and continue on his way up.

The knight went on slowly until he reaches the top where an evil warlock tried to cast a spell on him but the knight evaded it. Frustrated, the warlock kept blasting many spells on the knight but he kept evading it. He dash here and there getting closer to the warlock every time. Eventually, he raises up his sword and slashed the warlock's head. The head rolled down the staircase and was never to be seen. He gets the key to the princess' room from the warlock's corpse and rushed to the princess' room

When he opened the door, a princess was waiting there. Sitting on a chair in front of the door. He quickly kneel down in front of the princess but the princess raises his head and gave him a kiss on the forehead. He thanked the princess and tried to find a way to get down. He took the blanket and tied it all together to form a rope and tossed one end out the window while the other end is tied to the bedpost. He scaled down the walls of the tower with the princess following above him. When he reaches down, the rope snapped and the princess started falling but he managed to get her in time. They rode on the steed and traveled all the way back to the kingdom where both of them lived happily ever after...

Day 4

Another day passed. This time, I lied in my bed looking up at the ceiling. It's a lazy day for me. I looked at the clock. It shows 9 am. But what's the point of me looking at the clock? There isn't any meaning for it at all. Time is an illusion. I have no need to rush. So, I decided to stay in bed for a little longer. Hope comes in and try to drag me out of bed. Furiously, I yelled at it. But there's no point yelling at a dog.

Lazily, I dragged myself down the stairs and get some breakfast. I looked out the window and I hear the birds singing joyfully. They must be so happy since there are no other man left in this world. Bored, I decided to sit on the couch and watch all the DVDs that I've took from the DVD store. And I spent the whole day watching it...

Day 3

This is the 3rd day of my life as the last man on earth. I have gotten tired of the recent boredom and had decided to go crazy for this day. I went to the nearby department store and went to the sports section. I took one whole set of golf clubs and bring it out to the middle of the road. I took a golf ball and set it on top of one of the cars and hit it. The ball hit one of the windows of another car.

Well, that was entertaining. The car's alarm went off, but I ignored it. I took out another golf ball and I take another hit. This time, the ball went a little further. It hit another car on the other end and the same, the alarm went off. I spent the whole morning doing that. After getting bored with it. I walked down the street dragging the golf club set with me and went to a convenience store. 7-11... Hm... It used to be the greatest convenience store on Earth with branches world wide. But no one's there anymore. I went in and sit on the counter and get a cup of Slurpee. Well, it was a hot afternoon after all. I looked around. And I noticed the security camera. Despite, no one's around. It is still running recording everything.

I walked to the fridge and get myself a six pack. I drank a few cans and left the empty cans there. But I've got a better idea. I took the cans out to the streets. After finding a some crates, I align them in a row. And I put the cans on top of the crates. Taking out my gun, I aimed at it unlock the safety lock and started firing. Bang. One of the cans fell off. Bang. Bang. Bang. I missed two shots and the 3rd bullet hit the next can. I aim at the other can properly and fired at it. Bang! It hit the last can and the can fell off. Then, I walked back to my car and drove away. Tired of all these crazy activities, I decided to find something to fill my time. I went to a DVD store and find some nice movies and bring it all back home. Well, that's all the crazy stuff I can do today. Loneliness does bring craziness in as well.

Day 2

I woke up in the living room, and yet another complete silence. Gosh, I forgot. everyone's missing. I could had sworn the day before was a dream. A bad dream. I looked around, and noticed the gun I stole from the police station. I grabbed it and take a few other weapons and prepare myself for a whole lot of looting today.

Let's see, crowbar. Check. Pistol, check. Rifle, check. Well, guess that's enough. I drove the car around looking for places to loot. I don't know what would be best. So, I was driving down the road, hoping to find a nice place. I walked into a convenient store. And I was browsing around and I noticed a shadow. What?! Someone's here? I readied my pistol and started chasing after that shadow. "Hey! Hey!", I yelled. But the shadow just moved very fast. I couldn't see whether it's human or not. I just chase after it. Things were knocked down. I hear cans dropping on the floor. But, I just ignored it and run after that thing.

My heart beat rose. Chasing after the unknown wasn't what I intended to do. But as soon, as that thing was near the door. It did not open. It just crash into it. "Thud" I rushed up to it with the gun aimed at it. Gosh, it was a dog. And there I was thinking that it could be a human. With careful examination, I saw that it was bleeding. a blood trail. I tried to move closer towards it. It barked at me. This was no small poodle. It's a German Shepherd. I looked at it's leg and there was this steel bar stuck into it. I tried to touch the German Shepherd while trying to pull that thing out. It was no use. Everytime, I tried to get close to it, it'll try to bite me. I guess it can't move anywhere now. with an injury like that, it couldn't even get up. I went around looking for some kitchen gloves, and some duct tape. Wearing the kitchen gloves on my left hand, I let it bite it while I wrestled to duct tape it's mouth so that it won't bite me any further.

After that, I went around looking for some bandages, Iodine and a wire cutter. I cut the steel bar at both ends and then, with a spanner, I grabbed one end of the bar and try to pull it out. It wasn't easy. Took me a while to pull it out. But that shepherd kept struggling as I was pulling it out. As soon as it was over, I dipped some cotton with Iodine and applied to it. I guess it does sting quite a lot And I bandaged that dog's leg. After that, I went around looking for the dog food section, and took a bowl from the shelf and a can of dog food. With a can opener, I opened it and pour it into the bowl. Leaving it in front of the dog to eat while, I went around looking for all my needs.

As soon, as I'm done, I went to the car and drove back. That night, I heard a dog barking outside my house. I turned on the lights and I saw that dog limping and barking at my house. I opened the door and it came towards me. Squatting down, I pet that dog on its head and think, maybe I can need some company. And rushed that dog into the house. I decided, this dog can be the only reason why I will continue to live my life as the last man on earth. I named it Hope.

Day 1

The time is 21st December 2012...
Was supposed to be the end of the world. However, I woke up this morning to find myself as the last man on Earth. What happened? No one knows. It was supposed to be another normal boring day. But, as I walked down the steps, I looked around for any signs of human life. None. It was quiet. So quiet even a needle dropping on the ground can be heard. I walked around the streets for hours and hours and hours. Still, no sign of humans. No one I can talk to. I looked around, and I noticed a car which is still running. Maybe these people just disappeared. They don't even mind turning off their cars. I went into that car. The radio was on. But all I hear is silence. I turned it on to the max hoping that someone would start a broadcast. Frustrated, I gave up that plan and started to run around yelling like a madman. "Is there anyone?"

I ran for hours yelling and yelling. I ran to some unlocked doors, went in and try to look for human life. But to no avail, no signs of life. Tired and paranoid, I ran to the police station. I called out to anyone there, but no one was there. I went around the station. It was empty. Computers were turned on. Air conditioners were running. Fearing the worst, I ran around and check. As I passed by, I noticed a chat window. But it was sent a few hours ago. That means they disappeared all of a sudden.

Still fearing for my own safety, I rushed to find any weapons I can. Perhaps a zombie attack. Who knows? I might need weapons later. I rushed to the armory but I find it locked. Taking a crowbar, I hit it till it broke. Quickly, I rushed into it, taking as many weapons and ammunition I can get. Whatever it is, ensuring my survival is the most important thing. After getting the whole truckload of weapons. I rushed back home and store it in the closet. As night falls. I stayed at home. From now on, I'll always have a gun at my side. In case I'd ever need it.

Encountering E.Ts

We have seen many films about how ETs would look like...
Most of us always picture them as the Roswell's Grays...
A bald head, large black elliptical eyes, holes for nostrils, slimy skinned, a small mouth, large elliptical head... and so on...
But what is it that we're seeing in the real world?
There are cases where alien encounters had happened... such as this

The alien craft actually crashed into the wind turbine...
if you want to say that it was a Human aircraft... what could had happened to the third blade? and the craft would surely be sliced to pieces and crash somewhere wouldn't it?

next, read the article in this page...
Could it be that it is a optical illusion?
perhaps...
http://www.techchee.com/2008/01/22/life-on-mars-nasa-captured-a-female-alien-waving-her-hand-could-be-waiting-for-a-bus/
but it is also plausible that it is an ET...
how sure are we?
it's still a conspiracy...

How bout this? it was claimed to be taken from Klang...my hometown... But most likely not too...

if you try to split it frame by frame at the 17th second, you can actually see it charging up it's engines and start to move...
What ever these visitors are here for...
We don't know...
the only thing we can say is...
Let's wait till our first contact...

my introvert test results...

Your result for The Introvert/Extrovert Test...

Introvert Extrovert

Congratulations! You scored ###!

You're a quiet person, but not too quiet. You like your own company at times, but don't mind the company of others. Ideally, a few people is better than a lot in most situations. You'd be well suited to living in a small town and can easily handle living on your own.

You know how to have a good time, but also know how to enjoy a good book. While a night on the town can be enjoyed, you don't like to go out all the time. One can get too much of a good thing.

You can be irritated by extroverts sometimes. Especially if they talk a lot about non-consequential things or other people. You can sometimes be misunderstood for being grumpy and some extroverts find you a little aloof.

You're probably relatively happy in who you are although something can always be improved upon.

Take The Introvert/Extrovert Test at HelloQuizzy

明日晴れるかな

明日晴れるか (Ashita Hareru Kana)
Performed by: 桑田 佳祐 (Kuwata Keisuke)
Theme Song of: プロポーズ大作戦
(Proposal Daisakusen)

熱い涙や恋の叫びも
輝ける日はどこえ消えたの？
明日（あす）もあてなき道を彷徨うなら
これ以上もとには戻れない

耳を澄ませば心の声は
僕に何を語り掛けるだろう？
今は汚れた街の片隅にいて
あの頃の空を想うたびに

神より賜えし孤独やトラブル
泣きたい時は泣きなよ
これが運命（さだめ）でしょうか？
あきらめようか？
季節は巡る魔法のように

Oh, baby. No, maybe.
「愛」失くして「情」も無い？
嘆くようなフリ
世の中のせいにするだけ

Oh, baby. You’re maybe.
「愛」無くして「楽」は無い
幸せのFeeling
抱きしめてOne more time.

或りし日の己を愛するために
想い出は美しくあるのさ
遠い過去よりまだ見ぬ人生は
夢ひとつ叶えるためにある

奇跡のドアを開けるのは誰？
微笑みよ　もう一度だけ
君は気付くでしょうか？
その鍵はもう
君の手のひらの上に

Why baby? Oh, tell me.
「愛」失くして「憎」も無い？
見て見ないようなフリ
その身を守るため？

Oh, baby. You’re maybe.
もう少しの勝負じゃない！！
くじけそうなFeeling
乗り越えてOne more chance.

I talk to myself…

Oh, baby. No, maybe.
「愛」失くして「情」も無い？
嘆くようなフリ
残るのは後悔だけ！！

Oh, baby. Smile, baby.
その命は永遠（とわ）じゃない
誰もがひとりひとり胸の中で
そっと囁いているよ

「明日（あした）はれるかな・・・」

遥か空の下

English Translation...

明日晴れるかな (Ashita Hareru Kana)/Will It Be Fine Tomorrow

Shouting out for love, with hot tears streaming
Just where have those glorious days disappear to?
If it’s the same tomorrow, wandering on the streets,
There is no turning back from now on

Listening carefully to the voice of my heart
Just what would I probably say to myself?
Now, standing at the dirtied corner of the street,
Looking up in the sky, I will think to myself everytime

Loneliness and the troubles bestowed upon us from God
Just make us cry when we desire to
What will our fate be?
Should we just give up?
It is just like the never-ending magical wonders of the seasons

Oh baby. No, maybe.
Is there no ‘emotion’ without ‘love’?
Free to grieve about it,
For it is the consequence of society

Oh, baby. You’re maybe.
There is no ‘joy’ without ‘love’.
The feeling of happiness
Embrace it dearly one more time

For the sake of loving oneself on some days,
Recall on the beautiful memories that you have
For the life that has yet to unfold from the distant past
Exists to make that one dream of yours come true

Who will open the door to miracles?
Smile, just once more
Have you realized it yet?
The key (to the door) is already
On the palm of your hand

Why, baby? Oh, tell me.
Is there no ‘hate’ without ‘love’?
Free to foresee or not,
In order to protect oneself?

Oh, baby. You’re maybe.
It is not just a little game!!
This broken feeling
Overcome it one more chance

I talk to myself…

Oh, baby. No, maybe.
Is there no ‘emotion’ without ‘love’?
Free to grieve about it,
What is left will only be regret

Oh, baby. Smile, baby.
Life is not for eternity
To themselves, everyone in their heart
Whisper softly

“Will it be fine tomorrow…?”

Beneath the distant sky

This song was from a Japanese drama series called Proposal Daisakusen, or also known as Operation Love...

The special thing about this song is... the meaning of the lyrics...

What you can do today... Do it...

Don't wait till tomorrow...

For tomorrow, things will be much much much more tougher than today...

nice AMVs I've found on youtube...

For me, my life here... is really the start of something new... especially with the ones i love and the ones i cherished with all my life...

Another dedication post...

Sorry, if this is annoying or disgusting to anyone...
No offense...
This is only for my gf...
To my dearest...
This could explain why I won't want to leave you...
Why I love you...

A new world, a new hope...

The world is such a corrupted place... full of lies...
Every single soul has succumbed to their temptations...
the 7 deadly sins, gluttony, sloth, wrath, lust, greed, envy, despair...
these sins run in the human mind...
One man decided to end it all...
to create a new world, a new hope...
for all humanity...
He reaches into the drawer, he finds a gun...
with a whole box of bullets...
He loads it... walks out of his house, reaches for his car...
He drove for a long time...
He reaches to a place where many gathered...
A parade...
He hides in the crowd...
Waiting...
Waiting...
Waiting...
and Waiting...
Finally, his target arrives...
He takes out his gun and aims carefully at an old man standing in a car while that old man was waving at the crowd...
He pulled the trigger... A loud bang...
That old man collapses...
Blood stained his shirt...
Every person standing next to the old man rushed towards him...
They were wearing black suits and dark glasses with an earphone in their ear...
Whereas the rest started to run in fear...
Panic and chaos was going around...
But that man chose not to run...
He stood there, holding the gun...
Aimed at his head, and said...
"A new world, a new hope..."
As he pulls the trigger, blood spurt out from the other side of his head...
He collapsed to the ground, lifeless...
A bunch of men in dark suits and dark glasses who were right next to the old man were surrounding the man who shot himself...
Cruel... they say...
but for this man...
He was doing something good...
The old man didn't survive... They called him the President...
He is the leader of the country...
But for that man who killed him, he did it for a reason...
To protect his children...
The President had planned to start a war with another country...
Many were about to die...
Many young people...
But that man prevented it...

Annoying...

I know...
I am annoying...
But, sometimes, I don't realize...
All of my close friends find me annoying...
Even my girlfriend finds me annoying...
I'm trying...
I'm trying...
I'm trying...
I can't remember a lot of stuff...
I can't remember what is annoying and what is not...
There are times, when I try my best not to be annoying...
And I ended up making it worse...
Please, tell me sometimes if I do forget...
Just tell me that's all and I'll stop...
Is it better for me to shut up and never talk at all?

Another day, another whole new boredom...

Well, another day passes...
We're all getting older...
And... WAT?!
another whole new boredom?
what should we do?
gotta find a way to make our lives more interesting...
Starting a whole bunch of randomness soon...hehehe

Random post of randomness

Completely bored and now being random...
I have no idea what i should post here...
So I just post for no absolute reason...
Well, what can I say?
At this moment while i'm posting this silly post, i'm actually drinking Earl Grey Tea...
Sitting in front of the PC with the phone in hand talking to my gf...
Got so bored and have to rush for assignments...
So, I just post for no absolute reasons...
Maybe trying to say that I am god damn bored...
Where's my excitement?

A day we appreciate our Mothers...

The day we appreciate our mothers...
This day...
We felt grateful...
For our mothers whom had carried us for 9 months... and giving birth to us...
And we must be grateful that they have to take care of us for the rest of her life ever since we are born into this world...
Happy Mother's day to all the mothers in this world...
And happy mother's day to you mom...
May you be healthy always...

Star Trek XI

The most anticipated film has arrived...
The truth is, I've been waiting for this show for the past 2 years of my life...
Well, of course, I'm a trekkie...
But of course, the fact is, I've expected this 11th installment of the Star Trek series to suck...
But surprisingly...
It didn't...
Thanks to a great director J.J. Abrams...
And, the choice of actors...
Well, the CG had improved since the last installment of Star Trek... Star Trek: Nemesis...
The action was superb... with the little bit of slow motion stuff taken from Transformers...
Things weren't original in some parts...
Most of the original Star Trek jokes are still there...
like bumping the head on the rails... and stuff like those...
Storyline was quite nice, not confusing... unlike the previous ones...
By far, this is the best Star Trek movie since Star Trek III: The Search for Spock...
Overall, rating, 8.5...
This show, is highly recommended for all Trekkies world wide...
As the Vulcans would say...
"Live Long and Prosper"

Top row from Left to right: Leonard Nimoy, Walter Koenig, Nichelle Nichols, William Shatner, James Doohan, George Takei and Deforrest Kelley
Bottom from Left to right: Zachary Quinto, Anton Yelchin, Zoe Saldana, Chris Pine, Simon Pegg, John Cho and Karl Urban


Part of the teaser trailer of Star Trek XI

Promotional Poster for Stark Trek Clockwise from top left: John Cho, Simon Pegg, Anton Yelchin and Karl Urban

From left: Simon Pegg, Karl Urban, Zoe Saldana, Chris Pine, Zachary Quinto, John Cho and Anton Yelchin

Malaysian Politics... the shame...

I was wondering, what were politicians doing in the parliament and the state assemblies?
Well, have a look at the newspaper for the past whole year...
Every single day, it's about filing lawsuits against this person that person...
Insulting each other in sittings...
Blaming and pointing the fingers at each other...
Why all the ruckus?
Why can't we all sit down, shut up and just discuss?
I mean read the recent news on the Perak assembly...
They're all like a bunch of children playing in a bigger arena...
Why the hell, they want to fight?
Can't they just abide by the rules?
When one party has a majority...
The other party must acknowledge that they had lost...
Whatever it is...
Even in the parliament...
What's with the "beruks" and the "monkeys"...
Why are they calling names at each other?
This is an open debate...
A discussion...
Not a name calling session...
When would they ever learn all these I wonder...
Will the shame ever end?

Tears...

I looked out the window...
Not at the city lights...
Not at what I can see at the ground floor...
But at the skies...
As I notice each one of them...
So beautiful... Lighting up the skies...
Then, it reminds me of how your tears used to flow...
Whenever you cry, your tears would reflect the lights which makes it sparkle...
Such a beautiful sight, every time I gazed at you, while you're crying...
Those sadness looks...
Covered by a touch of beauty...
So beautiful, that the sadness is totally gone...
I wonder, will I ever live to see that again?
Will I be able to see it?
To be able to feel those warm droplets on my palm...
I might not live long...
I might be gone any moment...
But I will keep this part of memory...
This teardrop... Which had dropped into my heart from your eyes...
Ever so beautiful...
For as long as I can breathe...
This memory, will be etched into my heart for all eternity...

Rational Thinking and Religion...

This might be a sensitive issue for most people, so, don't continue reading this post if it does crossed your line...
Recently, I figured that there's a common idea which brings us down a lot...
Religion...
Well, for some, people might argue that religion prevents us from doing bad stuff, keep us on the right track...
But the fact is...
It wasn't religion after all which kept us on our right tracks...
The fact is, our morality, ethics...
These are the reasons why we are capable of many emotions...
Though i'm not asking everyone to be an atheist...
I myself don't really believe in gods...
I'm a Buddhist myself...
However, I do believe that there are certain things, that we as humans had over did it...
Such as faith...
Faith, when we overdo it....
It'll make us be fanatics...
Therefore, we have many faith extremists...
Things such as the Taco Siege in Texas and the emergence of an Islamist extremists groups...
But, If we do not believe too much into our faith, wouldn't it be better?
Religion is not for us to believe blindly...
We are to comprehend it ourselves...
Think...
And then believe what is right...
Humans should not believe that God is everything...
God is not everything...
However, divinity is one big question...
Are they real?
or are they just a joke?
No one can be sure...
It can't be proven...
However, if we have blind faith...
We'll end up being stupid...
The proper way of practicing our religion...
Is to believe in the teachings...
Believe that it is ethical...
Believe that it is right...
Religion should not be one reason why we have to hate each other just because they are of different religion...
Therefore, if we do omit the over believing, and replace it with our rationality...
We'll end up finding that we're all not so different after all...
We're all one race...
Our race... which is called humanity...
Think before you believe...
Do not believe blindly...

Attack of the birthday girl...

Today, is one of my friend's birthday...
So, as expected, my gf was planning something...
But we didn't expect things to turn out like this...hehehe(pic)
That's the birthday girl of course...
She actually got some cake on her face...
As I say... "some"... ahem...
well, nice pic though...
Of course, the results of this silly little prank wasn't a good idea...
We ended up playing with the chocolate and the cream from the cake which resulted in everyone getting a piece of chocolate on themselves...
Luckily, only a few managed to escape... No fair! they'd escape while we get the chocolates on our faces...


Chasing around throwing pieces of cakes and chocolates...

Supporting Gay Rights

Gay rights...
it's been a sensitive issue... in most countries...
Almost the whole world rejects homosexuals...
Well, I want to be those straight people who supports gay rights...
I mean, why should we suppress someone just because he/she is gay?
Why can't we take it as a mental abnormality?
Being gay doesn't mean you can't work...
Being gay doesn't mean you can't be part of the society...
Being gay doesn't mean you can't be together?
Must all humans be straight?
Can't we accept these abnormalities?
I've heard many gays are being oppressed...
In some countries, you get killed for being gay...
Well, it's a risky thing...
But I obviously think that the world should welcome these homosexuals as humans...
If we can accept deformed people and retarded people...
Why can't we accept homosexuals?
They are still humans...
Why do we need to force them to be straight?
We should accept these gay brothers and sisters as humans...
GAY PRIDE!

A grim day for me...

Today's a grim day for almost everyone in my class...
we have lost a fellow classmate yesterday morning...
So, today, we did have a moment of silence in class in conjunction with our recent loss...
However, I wasn't there to join them in the moment of silence...
Cause i was sleeping...
Anyway, screw the retarded English talk...
We went to the funeral despite it's quite far...
My mates and I shared the same car...
When I reached Muar, I was feeling a little grim...
I couldn't smile, couldn't laugh...
The first thing I did was taking some joss stick and pray for my late classmate...
I looked at the funeral picture...
The large imprint of his normal picture...
Making it look as if he's watching us praying for him...
Then after the moment of prayer...
We went next to the coffin to look at him for the last time...
Apparently...
I don't have the guts to look at his face, and I wonder why...
Perhaps, I wasn't ready to see him go...
I couldn't believe that it can lead to this...
This is the first time i attended a fellow classmate's funeral...
Of course i had never lost a classmate in an accident...
Well, anyway, bless him...
May he have a safe journey...
We'll be seeing you there, my fellow friend...

Short Life

Life...
Why do we think life is short and meaningless?
If we think that our lives are meaningless, everything will be boring...
How important is our lives?
Is it until someone lost theirs?
Are our lives so short?
Well, to be true, we won't know when will we die...
For that, live our lives... to the fullest...
No matter what we do... Every thing we want to do before we die...
Do it early...
we won't know...
we might be dead in the next few seconds...

God.... Is it real? or is it our imagination?

Is God real?
Does he really exist?
We are uncertain whether he exists for real or not...
The only thing which kept us believing in Him is our faith...
But what is God actually?
Is it some foreign visitors coming from the sky helping out humans to build civilizations? Thus giving them hope? Or is it a real deity which created the universe?
There are chances that alien visitors from the past might be mistaken as god in this world...
Primitive humans believed in Gods to keep their faith in...
However, I do believe that there is a chance where God is an alien...
But proving God is an alien is impossible...
So, this question is up to anyone... Do you believe God is an alien or not?

2012, a year of mass hysteria...

For years everyone's looking forward to the year 2012...
What's the reason?
Armaegeddon...
But how sure are we that the world would end?
The Mesoamerican Long Count calendar commonly known as the Mayan Calendar ends on December 21st 2012...Gregorian Calendar
But why does it end there?
Could it be that it's because they didn't take into consideration for a longer time period?
Or is it that they foresaw the end of the world?
This is uncertain...
Another proof of the end of the world hysteria is the massive astrological activities...
Scientists at NASA predicted more black spots on the sun will be seen and a lot of asteroid activities in space...
There's also a report on an Asteroid setting on a collision course with Earth but it is unlikely to hit Earth...
The unstable global activities happening around us... such as the book of Revelation has said...
Where even Mountains begin to move from their places...
Signifying an earthquake...
All leads to the bible...
Could it be that the prophecy is being fulfilled?
We are uncertain...
One thing's for sure, we'll soon find out what will happen when the time comes...

Ghosts... is it a being from another dimension?

We say that ghosts are spirits of the dead...
But how true is that?
Is it possible that they are not spirits after all?
Perhaps a being from the other dimension that can't adapt to our dimension and form a body...
So in conclusion, they turn into a energy orb, shadows or even a blurred image?
But when you think about it...
The Malays used to mention about Malam Jumaat which is actually Thursday night till Friday morning...
It is called a transition period between the netherworld and the real world...
But could it be that this period of time, it is not a transition period...
But perhaps a resonance of the vibrations between the 2 different dimensions?
It is plausible...
We couldn't say that it is confirmed that it is a resonance...
Perhaps, when we die, we didn't appear as spirits in this world...
But perhaps a being in the other dimension...
Perhaps they can exist there as another being which we can't assume what they'll look like...
Perhaps, they have the power to cross dimensions...
We can't say...
This mystery can't be solved unless we do prove something... If we do cross the dimension border...
What would we be like in their world?
Would we be their ghosts?
Which they fear so much?
No one is certain...

Something worth thinking about....

This is a question posed by many...
You're with someone for a long time, and you don't have sex?
What's wrong with you?
Well, the reason why we shouldn't is clear...
Have you ever thought that having sex is a big problem if you're no married?
Can you handle the stress of being talked about behind your back?
Even if you can, can you really handle the stress if you or your girlfriend gets pregnant?
How are you going to feed the child?
If you go for abortion...
Can you live with the fact that you murdered a child?
Have you ever thought of any of these?
Sure, sex might be fun but why do it now?
Why not wait for the few years till you get married?
Isn't it better if you wait?
Well, if you still think that my explanation wasn't good enough...
Go to the following link...
http://nightclow.blogspot.com/2009/04/did-u-are-u-speechless.html

Why do we do Science?

What if man were to play god?
What if humans have the power to create life?
The power to force things to work?
To destroy all existence?
What are the consequences?
A question posed to all scientists in this world.
What are we achieving from science?
A better understanding of the things around us?
Or to achieve god like knowledge?
What is the true knowledge?

Hatred...

Humans are creatures that are unique from other creatures on this planet...
We are the only creatures with a complex brain allowing us to have more emotions and thinking power...
But we are always clouded by hatred...
The reason for our hatred is because of the differences between humans...
If we can actually settle our differences...
We would actually find a reason to not hate...
Hatred had already corrupted this world...
We kill each other, make each one of our lives even more miserable...
We can't find a common place where we can stand together...
It's all because of hatred...
But if we actually settle our differences, look at each other...
We'll find out that we're not actually that different after all...
We're all the same...
Humans are humans...
there is no point of killing, jealousy and all evil thoughts...
Evil originates from hatred...
Hatred leads to our problems we have in our society today...
Racism, murder, war...
all these things...
come from the same root...
it's all hatred...

Missing home...

I've been so far off home for a while now.
I haven't been home for such a long time.
I wonder what had happened back home.
It's been a while since I last tasted a proper family meal.
I haven't ate a proper home cooked meal for such a long time.
Fried wantons, my mom's specially made Potatoes with soy sauce.
I kinda wonder how it'd taste like now.
Things had gone wrong in the past few months.
Mom's got a stroke, which scared me to hell.
I still remember that day where I was sleeping on the chair in front of my PC.
My bro woke me up and told me mom couldn't walk.
I didn't know what happened until she was admitted to the hospital.
My dad didn't came until the evening, even though we called him many times.
But that's a long while ago.
She's better now.
But I was wondering. What have I done in this whole year?
Had I been wasting a lot of time and money?
Shouldn't I be studying instead of failing almost every subject?
I guess, it's time for a change.
I miss home.
I miss my family.
I miss being at home.
Having that familiar feeling.
It's all different when I'm staying outside.
I'm looking forward to go back as soon as possible.
It's all I want now.
Going back home.
Walking down the streets which I'm familiar with.

The song which makes me cry...

This song brings back a lot of memories... Making me cry at every time I listen to this song... Touya Kinomoto plays the song when he was thinking about his mother whom had passed away long time ago... It just makes me cry when I listen to it and thought about my early life as a kid... And how my mom would actually raise me up...

Mezzoforte-Garden Party

Takoyaki fight to the extreme....

yasashisa no tane

Original / Romaji Lyrics
Sabishii toki ni wa nukumori wo sagashi Haruka ni tadoru yo Natsukashii kioku wo
Haha ga itoshigo wo kaina ni idaite Hidamari no naka de komoriuta wo utau
Yumeji ni asobu osanako no hoho ni Yousei ga tsukuru shiawase no ekubo
Yume kara samete mo emi wo nokoshite 'ku Sonna yasashisa no tane ga kokoro ni aru
Haritsumeta kokoro hodoite agetara Yasashisa no tane wo hitotsu maite okou
Yagate me wo dashi tsubomi wo hokorobu Utsukushii basho wo kokoro ni motsu nara
Itsu ka wa dare mo ga sunda aozora wo Omoikiri takaku jiyuu ni habatakeru
Jiyuu ni habatakeru sono mune ni hana wo sakasete...

my iq score...

The day I find everything uninteresting

It's kinda weird...
But somehow, today, I felt as if nothing interests me at all...
Not even games...
I usually get interested in games...
Not animes, not games, not even porn?
Wow... I thought I'd never live to see the day where I find everything around me boring...

close but no cigar...

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M THIS CLOSE TO GET A HATSUNE MIKU FIGURINE!!!!!!
BUT THE BAD THING HAS TO HAPPEN LAST MINUTE!!!!!!!!
OF ALL THE TIMES, WHY AM I SHORT ON CASH AT THIS MOMENT?
IF I HAVE RM 300 AT THAT TIME IT'D BE BETTER...
CAUSE I'M SO CLOSE TO GET THAT 1/8 SCALE HATSUNE MIKU FIGURINE!!!!

Embarassing moment

Today's one of the most embarrassing times I've ever been through in my life...
I got stuck in a toilet and I can't get out...
Until I called my girlfriend and ask a guy to open the toilet door for me to get out...
Why?
1. the toilet door was tight.
2. the handles from the inside is broken.
3. the door is really really heavy...

Night Sky

Night sky...
it's so beautiful...
So sad, no one ever paid attention to it...
they think that you can't see stars nowadays...
but the fact is...
they're wrong...
Look up at the skies...
You can still see stars...